Outch ...

Calm down, Julie, calm down.

Stress kicked in, then my symptoms went back and now they are to the roof. (which is practical, we need to renovate that place too ... lol)

It's hard to be sick and stressed at the same time.

I have to get rid of stress. I have to get rid of that constant lil voice in the back of my head reminding me that one of them can be lying dead somewhere.

I have to calm down.

Anxiety is never good.

Autopsy result for Strudel

It's definitely antifreeze. In Quebec, we use "prestone" in cars like in many other places in the world. Sadly, those are not only super toxic for animals, but also very tempting for them (it tastes sweet).

I am having mixed feeling now. I can't help but wonder if I could have done something more. But I've never seen any of that in the yard. I keep my eye open.

Though, now I know that non toxic prestone can be used. I also learned that in BC it's even illegal to use something else than non toxic one.

You would have never seen a girl becoming part of a cause faster than this. I will fight 'til my last breath to make sure that toxic prestone becomes history.

Adopt a Cat

My husband and I are thinking about different ways to go on with the shelter.

We calculated that we can keep "easily" 20 abandoned cats in the barn. This is money talking.

Of course, shit happens. People still and will always drop cats on our doorstep, even if we are planning on sterilization (that will happen soon in Feb.), cats will always come.

Those are free range cats. Well, let say they spent their days on the farm with us, and they are living in a barn.

They have a great life, they run free, play together, hunt... They have a different life than the house cat, but they have a good life. They are mentally good, they play a lot, are sociable, cuddling machine.

We play with them daily, cuddle and pet them daily.

Well so what we were thinking is that, a cat costs us around 15$ per month. This include food, shelter, blankets, toys, vaccination, sterilization and a "oh shit fund" (cat can wound themselves, get sick etc).

We are now offering to virtually adopt a cat of the shelter. I will soon post picture of each of the cats we have here. So if you want to virtually adopt a cat contact us. You will be sent monthly newsletter about the cat, vids if possible and pictures.

Of course, adopting the cat, is a way to help the shelter, it is not a guaranteed way to make sure that one, the cat will never been given away (though that's a very small possibility, people don't really like farm cats and I rarely have demands for that that are serious), that the cat will never become part of our house (we have 3 places, when one of the house cat goes, we might offer the place to another one --- and since Vanille has cancer ... :-(

But we will give you all the details, and we will be fair and honest to you guys. I know a word isn't worthing much nowadays, but you can have mine.

So stay tune for some profile to be posted.

Autopsy on Moutarde's body

Moutarde's body has been autopsied ... She died from a mix of very hard flu virus and probably ingestion of Prestone (should I mention we live next to a garage)

Other autopsy result will enter as my favorite and precious vet will perform an autopsy on Strudel's body.

We are relieved it's not a hard incurable thing that is going on.

I miss Moutarde really much. She was full of life.

I have a hard time going to the barn now ... I hope it will pass.

We are still raising funds and I am thinking about several ideas, not only to go on with the shelter project, but to make it better. Stay tune.

To all of you who supports us, 1st man, especially. Thanks a million.

It's not going well ...

Strudel died last Saturday.

We brought the body to the vet, as we were talking of the autopsy, during that night, two others, Moutarde and Glouton died too.
We tried to save Moutarde by bringing her to the Vet emergency room but it was already too late.
Glouton died in Martin's arms last night.

My friends convinced me to put a donate button on the site.

I have already a lot of help by the vet. But just Moutarde attempt to be saved cost me 250$.

I am trying ... I am hoping. I am crying.

I miss them.

I follow my friends advices.

We have chicks!

It's alive!

From Jan 26th to Jan 28th, our first batch of chicks were born.

We did pretty well. Only 3 chicks never saw the light and one died 12 hours after being born from a broken yolk.

Our chicks are now in their maternity, a place where it's warm enough for them. They are growing well and their are already showing some feathers. Chicks grow to the speed of light.

It was an amazing experience. I will surely redo it and I loved to see them getting born. They are born fighters.

Now they think I am their mother, reacting to my every sound and move. It's funny.

The Memorial Project

As Pirouline was driven to her last resting place that I won't talk about 'cause I don't think it's legal :-/ ... I was telling myself that I have to find a way to "dispose" (I don't like that word) of the animals' body when they pass.

I don't want it to "insensitive". I want it to be something we can see, a place when we can remember but I also want it to be a place where we can go to remember them.

In winter, it's impossible to bury the animals, the soil is deep frozen and it's quite hard to deal with.

I want a place that would be like a sanctuary. A place where I could go and think about them and show them even if death, how important and meaningful they have all been to me.

I am thinking of different ways. If one of you, my dear readers, have a suggestion or a solution for me. Please comment in the comment section.